i hate it. i'm hating it. i hate me. i'm hating me.

was: happy, carefree, excited, loved

now: hate. hate. hate. stubborn.

i know it's wrong but why am i allowing it to happen...

arggh.

life.

can be so complicated.

That perfect moment

I wonder what it's like to look so deep in your eyes
I wonder what it's like to hold your hand
I wonder what it's like to caress your beautiful face
I wonder what it's like to just sit beside you under the dark sky
I wonder what it's like to share with you a cold drink or whatever your favorite dish is
I wonder what it's like to have your arms wrapped around me
I wonder what it's like to let my fingers run through your soft, brown hair
I wonder what it's like to walk barefooted with you along the shores of a serene blue beach

For now, I'll have to wonder and think and daydream and marvel

Until forever becomes forever.

stalk me not

Ok, so I was browsing through some blogs of people I do not know and yes, of some people that I know of, a few of them doesn't know me (it's NOT stalking, it's uhmm..) I'm always fascinated whenever I see that 'other side' of the people I know. Be it their artistic, creepy, geeky, soft, and sometimes even their troubled side, I always find myself astonished. It just makes me more interested and keen to be acquainted with them.

Trust His heart

Life is so beautiful. Yes, not all are turning out the way I’d like them but that’s what makes life more beautiful. It’s the flaws, the unexpected realities, the unpredictable situations that reminds me to look up and trust His heart.

I’ve learned to trust Him, when nothing makes sense, for in the end what really matters is how much I’ve allowed God to take control of the things I can’t control. That’s the essence of His lordship over my life anyway. For now, I’m just being obedient (well, I try..).