Friday, May 12, 2006

Unfathomable

I can not pretend that
I understand it all
I can only trust in the beauty of Your promises

Who am I to question Your greatness
But still You listen to every word I say
When all else fail, You even take my place
To bear all the pains and the shame

Now I know
You are always with me
Beside me

When I look back and see all the mess I’ve gotten myself into
I am reminded of every tear I caused You

But You held me in Your arms and prompted me
That it was all part of the past
That You have forgiven me
That Your love for me yesterday, today, and tomorrow shall remain unchanged

Now, I still am not perfect
I still doubt and worry at times
But everything else is expunged when I’m reminded of You
Because You are the ultimate reason of why I’m here, of all these trials and triumphs
I now live for You

If I was a planet, You will be the sun
I will choose to be Mercury so I could be the one nearest You

So I could get a glimpse of Your every miracle
So I could hear Your every sigh
So I could watch You closely
So I could experience what it’s like to be intimately near You

o0o

I am not a writer, I was never one. I only become a writer every night when I record my everyday comings and goings in my private journal. Or when I do write on this blog.

But today, I don’t know what has gotten into me. I was able to find the words to express what’s in my heart.

I know the lines aren’t perfect, there’s no rhyme. It’s not a masterpiece. But it’s from my heart and it’s something special.

I’m just grateful for everything that has been happening for me and my family.Well, none of us (dad, mum and I) got promoted or had a raise. Neither one of my sisters received a special award last March. But I’m thankful. Knowing that even when I get stripped off of every material possession, of friends, of relatives, of the people I love the most... I will be fine. I shall be fine. I shall not be moved. For He is with me. He alone is enough. He is my strength, my provider, my comforter, my Father.